We Cannot Force Ourselves to Love, Just as we cannot Force Another to Love Us.

why? why do we fall for those who cant catch us, and ignore those who love us. why do we cry over those who only mean to cause us pain, and waste our time on someone who is just trying to bring us down. we cannot force ourselves to love, just as we cannot force another to love us. we can only be someone who is capable of being loved. who you need to be with isn't always the hottest girl or the the one that girl everyone would die to be with. Maybe sometimes the people that we are really meant to be with are the ones that make us smile. the ones that we can share awkward silences with. Maybe we are supposed to be with the one who is so wrong for us that it makes it right. someone who makes us see them for who they really are. I think that we need to accept that our princess may not be what we expected and that maybe... just maybe shes a little bit more ...

DEAR CHILD

Dear child,

Breathe deeply,
Blink away those tears
Step forward
Open your eyes
And walk away from the pain.

I know, its great. It’s a great pain.
The memories, they are precious to you.
Even though that’s all they are,
I know they mean more to you than almost anything.

I know you’re trying to decide between what’s best for you and what you want.
But I promise that if you give it a chance, the one who is better for you will end up being what you want.
I know, it’s difficult.
Each step will hurt like hell,
Because you’re walking away from everything you once believed in.
Walking away from the one you loved.

But there is nothing for you there.
Not anymore.
It’s best to close the door gently as you walk away.
Don’t slam it.
Bitterness isn’t the way to go.
Just slip away into the sunlight.
You shine on your own,
But its time you let the world see you,
And let the sun warm your skin.

You always loved to dance in the rain.
Keep dancing.
You’re good at smiling through the storm.
Even through all the heartbreak,
You never stopped giving hope to everyone else.

You got a little weary.
It’s affected you, certainly.
You’ve cried so many times.
Those bruises on this heart of yours?
They’re a faded yellow,
But I know it seems as though they’ll never fade.

But they will.
Only if you let them.
I know you feel like running away.
Like sinking into the shadows,
To escape the world and all its pain right now.

But what you need to do…
Baby girl, you know this new guy…
He loves you for you.
He loves you,
And  he won’t give up on you.
Run into his arms.
Sink into his love for you.
Show yourself to him.
He wants to see you
To know you.

Breathe deeply,
Blink away those tears
Step forward
Open your eyes
And walk away from the pain.

Because he’ll be there,
With his arms spread wide,
A smile on his face,
So happy to see that you’ve finally come ‘round.

Love,
Your Heart.

Sweet Conversation

Girl: I think I like you
Boy: You think? I think you must be mistaken.
Girl: no, I like you
Boy: I don’t think you like me. I think you like the company. I think you like the conversations we have. I think you like that someone listens. You like the feeling that someone is always there for you. But should you remove me from the equation and place someone else in my spot, you would feel the same way. So you see, you like the feeling but not ME.
Girl: Please don’t tell me what I feel. I like you…in fact, I love you.
Boy: Would you do me a favour?
Girl: Anything
Boy: I want you to close your eyes and imagine the following. Imagine yourself in 10 years. I want you to imagine how you look in 10 years. What kind of clothes will you wear. I want you to imagine where you will be working in 10 years. I want you to imagine your family and how they look. I want you to imagine your future car. I want you to imagine your kids on a Saturday afternoon as they play in the backyard. I want you to imagine their first bike ride. I want you to get it all in there. Imagine your house, furniture, everything. I want you to imagine your life.
Okay can you see it all in front of you?
Girl: yeah, I see it.
Boy: Now, did you see me anywhere in there?
Girl: yes I did.
Boy: and where would that be?
Girl: Well, obviously you were right there with the kids…after all you are their father!!!!
Boy: (long pause) I love you too.

To Cherish Every Moment With You

im inlove with you.you dont know how much i love you, how much i shake when i walk in the street while reading your messages on my phone. and i save all of our online conversations..i feel a smile slip on my face at the sound of your name...i think about you most of the time. when i go to bed i cant help but fallin love with you again and again, i cherish every moment that we spend time together because im scared that one day it will never happen again. and everytime you walks in my mind i keep on singing a song title "i miss you like crazy". i dont know but this is really what i feel for you.  you are the first person i look for when i enter a room and i fall asleep to the memory of your face.. you're breathtaking and ive never seen such a gergoeous smile; but like i said, im inlove with you.

TAMANG USAPAN LANG

BABAE says
marunong ako maglangoy­­
pero ang problema, nakakalimutan ko kung pano pag nandiyan na siya­­
para may sumagip­­
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
yun lang
masyado mo kase iniisip na
sa pagpapaanod mo me isang tao na sasagip sayo kahit di ka pa humingi ng tulong
its called expecting or assuming
BABAE says
korak ka diyan­­
pero kasalanan ba mag assume kung may dahilan naman kung bakit nag aassume?­­
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
kung nasa probinsya at walang dagat sa lugar ng taong dapat na sasagip sayow anu gagawin mo-maghihintay gang sa dumating sya-kahit alam mo na obvious naman na walng pagasa o matatagalan pa
BABAE says
yun bang, umm\iiwas ka na tapos lalapitan ka­­
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
di naman kasalanan magassume
ang mali dun ee
dun kana nakatutok sa pag aassume
ee me ibang way naman para mangyari yown
BABAE says
panu?­­
teach me nga­­
tutal expert ka­­
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
sa buhay
di mo kailangan
maghintay
maghanap
o mamilit ng isang tao para lang mahalin ka
o maibigay sayo ang dapat na gusto mo
sa buhay ang kailangan lang gawin ee
makontento sa kung ano meron
kung ayaw sayo
at walang paraan
dont hesitate to push yourself in that things
mas lalo ka lang masasaktana t magmumukhang tanga sa harap ng nakararami
tandaan mong
expecting is one way of hurting yourself
BABAE says
galing ah­­
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says

BABAE says
pak na pak­­
copypaste ko nga­­
hahaha­­
Jas Ten Lee Rubio says
pero kase ang mga tao mas
pinapauna nila sa pila yung mga di naman karapatdapat at bawal-yun nga yung sinasabi nila na-masarap daw ang bawal-see-dun palang pwede mo ng masabing tanga ka

This is Me

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with "Do it By 10's". At the end, choose 15-35 people to be tagged.

Be honest, you know your friends will comment and write something if they think you're lying.

TEN ARE YOUs

1. Are you single – yes yes yes
2. Are you happy –  no no no
3. Are you bored – i like being myself-im not emo- im just alone-
4. Are you white –  yes
5. Are you Italian – No
6. Are you intelligent – idk
7. Are you honest – im a lier
8. Are you nice – if your nice
9. Are you Irish –  no.
10. Are you Asian –  Yeah !


TEN FACTS
1. Full Name – Lee "bengbeng" Arr
2. Nicknames –  lee, teng, bengbeng, lalala, master.
3. Birth place – my moms wound
4. Hair color - blonde
5. Natural hair style -  bangs
6. Currently living at –  The peninsula-
7. Birthday –  November 25, 1992
8. Mood –   uknown, depressed, bored.
9. Favorite color –  gray
10. One Place you'd like to visit – U.S.A


TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love – EWAN
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – NO.
3. Do you currently have a crush? – I DONT CARE
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally – IDK
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart  -- IDK
6. Have you ever had your heart broken – I FORGOT SOB* SOB*
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them –  YES.
8. Are you afraid of commitment – I JUST DONT LIKE IT.
9. Who was the last person you hugged – TEDDY(MY STUFF TOY)
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – I DONT SAY I LOVE YOU.

TEN THIS OR THAT
1.   Love or lust – FOOD
2. Hard liquor or beer –  SODA
3. Cats or dogs – MONKEY
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - NO FRIENDS.
5. Creamy or Crunchy – CREAMY-
6. Pencil or Pen – PENCIL-IT HAS ALWAYS AN ERASER
7. Wild night out or romantic night in –  WORSE NIGHT EVER
8. Money or Happiness – MONEY
9. Night or day – NIGHT
10. IM or phone -  IM

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out-  IDK
2. Seen a polar bear –  YEAH,WITH HIS WIFE
3. Done something you regret – I REGRET WHEN FALLING INLOVE
4. Bungee jumped – YES. I LIKE IT WHEN I DEPRESSED
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor – NO.IT'S JUST A WASTE OF TIME.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker –  IDK
7. Been caught naked – NO.IM SENSITIVE.
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back – NOTHING.
9. Cried because you lost a pet- NO.I KILL THEM BEFORE.
10. Wanted to disappear –  I NEVER EXIST.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes – SMILE.
2. Light or dark hair – LIGHT
3. Hugs or kisses – SEX HAHAHA
4. Shorter or taller – I DONT CARE
5. Intelligence or attraction – INTELLIGENCE
6. Hot Topic or Hollister – HOT TOPIC
7. Funny or serious –  SERIOUS.
8. Older or Younger –  OLDER-BUT IVE ALWAYS HAD YOUNGER THAN ME.
9. Outgoing or quiet -  QUIET
10. Sweet or Bad – BADSWEET


TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd -  YES.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - YES. TALKIN TO MYSELF.
3. Ever tried walking on your hands – I WILL TRY.
4. Ever been to a rock concert –  NO.I HATE NOISE PLAY.
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team? – I DONT DANCE.
6. Ever went skinny dipping? – IT DPEND.
7. Ever been on a blind date – NO.
8. Ever went ice skating – YES.I TRIED TO SWIM
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz,Volvo, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? – THIS DECEMBER.YAY.
10. Ever been in a circus? – YES.


10 WOULD YOU RATHERS
1. Go bungee jumping or cliff diving? – BUNGEE JUMPING- IT FEELS GOOD WHEN YOU ARE DEPRESSED
2. Watch a Horror Film or a Chic Flick? – I ALSO SEEN REAL GHOST.
3. Go to Hawaii or Aspen? – NEVERMIND
4. Play spin the bottle or truth or dare? –  TRUTH OR DARE-AND IVE ALWAYS BUSTED.
5. Cheat or be caught cheating? – NO.
6. Read or watch? – READ.
7. Text or Call? – I DONT USE PHONE FOR TEXTING OR CALLS.I USED PHONE BECAUSE OF MY MOM AND MOBILE FACEBOOK.
8. Sing a Rebecca Black Song or a Justin Bieber Song? - HAHAHAHA
9. Quiet and Happy or Loud but Hurting? – QUIET BUT IT HURTING
10. Go on Facebook or Tumblr? – TUMBLR.IT'S MY JOB.


10 RANDOM FACTS.
1. I LIKE POTATOES
2. I ALWAYS LOCK MYSELF IN MY ROOM.
3. I HATE NOISE.
4. I HATE CHOCOLATES.
5. I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU
6. I LOVE MY FAMILY-BUT THEY HATE ME.
7. I LIKE WALKIN IN THE RAIN.
8. I LOVE EATING-MORE RICE.
9. I LIKE BEING WEIRD
10. IM SENSITIVE, I KILL PEOPLE.


10 LASTS
1. Last phone call you made – MOM
2. Last person you hugged  -- MY PET. HE'S JUDAS AND THAT WAS 2 MONTHS AGO.
3. Last person(s) you hung out with –  MY CHILDHOOD FRIEND
4. Last time you worked – HIDDEN KILLER.
5. Last person you tackled – MY PET.
6. Last person you IM'd---  UNKNOWN.
7. Last person you texted – MOM
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with? – OLDER SISTER.
9. Last person you webcammed with? – ITS NOT ME.
10. Last persons/things you missed – MY HOUSE.

I can sit here with you forever

I can sit here with you forever. I don't need to touch you. I don't need to hear your voice. I don't even have to look at you. As long as I know that you are here besides me. If I can smell your scent that I've grown to adore more than that of roses, hear you breathe and feel your warmth in the air around me, I'll be happy all my life...